Sunday, May 15, 2005

moved
loved at 11:26 a.m.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

haha happy birthday ms tan!
loved at 07:36 p.m.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

haha i saw jingna just now. she's so chio now! oh and there was this sign "you touch you buy, no buy no touch, touch and no buy go and die" at peoples park. cool stuff.

trixie gave me a fengling -gasps and faints- with 16 hearts. apparently they're on purpose. but GOSH see she STILL loves me. my ex-fiance =( oh well. and i sorta chose what yihui was gonna give me. hahaha

andd that blurpig forgot to get her umbrella back from me. oh well
loved at 08:32 p.m.

Monday, May 9, 2005

i feel super used. can you please stop it. i'm begging you. as in seriously. why me?!? i dont wanna confront you. what if i'm wrong. i really don't wanna cause any misunderstanding especially if it's all my fault. so please stop if you understand what i'm saying. thank you
loved at 11:28 p.m.

Sunday, May 8, 2005

haha thanks all of you who wished me happy birthday. i feel loved. hahaha (:

evil got bugged by horrid stomachache that lasted the whole day. _{and drained my energy blehh sorry matthew} oh well. chocolate fondue's nice (:
loved at 09:53 p.m.

Saturday, May 7, 2005

i met people today. or rather, saw. i didn't call them. haha.. first saw david and grace from tns. but they didn't recognise me so. then saw jasmine! [hah we recognised each other(:] hahaah at kallang. yepp then hmmm met janice. but she didn't recognise me i think. oh well
loved at 11:03 p.m.

Saturday, May 7, 2005

oh well (: watched kingdom of heaven yesterday. gah i dont feel like blogging but i shall so i can look back next time. hahahahaha no. nvm. anyway the show is gory. but quite ok i suppose. i dunno not my type of movie. hahas

i think i spent >100bucks in the past week. which is'nt good. i think i'm broke. hmm. maybe i am broke. oh well (:
loved at 12:03 p.m.

Friday, May 6, 2005

whee our last paper starts in 45 minutes (:
loved at 09:46 a.m.

Thursday, May 5, 2005

the exams are ending. that means. everything's gonna be back to normal =(

i realised how hard it is to remember some stuff when you're too caught up with others. i tried remembering some stuff today.. but somehow i just couldn't remember much. hahaha and it's not what you're thinking uh huhh (=

and i daoed alot of people the past few weeks.
sorry.
loved at 08:30 p.m.

Wednesday, May 4, 2005

haha my mom is so cute.. she took pictures with me just now and she exclaimed that we're looking more alike. hahaha.. i said "hmm you're getting eyebags" (= oh well

i love my mommy (=
loved at 10:22 p.m.

Wednesday, May 4, 2005

haha i'm growing into a lazy fat pig. oh well.

i got roses for my mom. they're prettyy but both of us are too lazy to give them water. hahaha =P lala i haven't started chem and math. crapp i dowan to study. >.<

ohh charissa's mom's birthday's today too! hahaha so cool right (:
loved at 03:23 p.m.

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

haha my mommy's birthday's tomorrow. but i cant remember where to get the mango cake she likes =( i shall go and search tomorrow.

whee.. typing bio notes on word is irritating they underline all the bio terms so i have real spelling errors which i didn't correct. oh wells.. physics is boring. we aren't learning stuff. we're learning O levels stuff. -horrors- hahaha jk (:

ohh yesterday i was going to read bio, then i fell asleep at the table. somehow i dreamt that i was gonna climb stairs -> and i er think i attempted to climb stairs. so. i fell off my chair. haha.. at least it woke me up. but i think i went to sleep on the bed after that. (: and and i realise i cant fall asleep before 12! AHH howw >< lol
loved at 10:40 p.m.

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

i decided i like exams. how often do i get to reach home before 3? and there's NO homework. [well no, if you don't think about the hideous pts due in week 9 and 10] hahaha maybe we should have exams like this 4 times a year at least! so we get nice breaks every term. yay
loved at 02:30 p.m.

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

haha i like taking public transport home. paper ended at 1130 i reached home at 2. hmm dropped by toapayoh to get some stuff..

interesting conversations on the bus. some sec sch girls who just had an essay exam/test were discussing the question: is winning what matters most to sportsmen? haha well their responses were the typical ones. ones that teachers would be happy to mark. i dunno. all of them exclaimed in awe and amazement that they wrote the same thing. how surprising.

and a mother was asking her primary school [dunno what level] son how many pieces of foolscap he had left. 1. he replied happy. (: haha.. so cute. oh well he got a huge [loud] scolding from his mom. he has an essay test tomorrow too. but i suppose he wont be needing too many pieces. would he?

i should start studying. oh its my mom's birthday tomorrow. and my 2nd paper ends at 10.45 (: whee maybe i'll take a detour back again.
loved at 02:24 p.m.

Monday, May 2, 2005

oh gosh. liling is so super nice. haha.. thanks liling! and joonsern too! (: thankk you. i better pass my eng and ss tomorrow.
loved at 11:01 p.m.

Monday, May 2, 2005

9 hours of sleep for 3 consecutive days.

how nice (=
loved at 10:53 a.m.

Sunday, May 1, 2005

haha i had a haircut. hmmm but don't look much different. just that i've got more fringe.. alot more. i shall hide them.

oh i was wondering if oranges are called oranges because they are orange. or is the color orange called orange because of oranges? cos i just ate a green orange. that's super weird. the orange is green. its really green. dark green. but it tastes just like mandarin oranges. maybe its genetically modified. but its more likely that i'm ignorant. but aren't oranges supposed to be orange? oh well

my fringe is starting to irritate me already. i need my hairband.
loved at 03:26 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

this shall be my last entry for today. i think it's the eighth entry. how cool am i. hoho and i realised all my entries are like me, myself and i. sorta fits the url i suppose. i'm wondering what i should do tomorrow. and on monday.

i really dont know.

oh. and i'm amused at certain stuff. but i shan't be mean. =P i shall just be secretly amused. (:
loved at 10:54 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

haha my kitten ran at me just now. so funny, i didn't see it, then suddenly felt something knock against my leg. so i screamed (:

heh, went for a proper dinner with my family for the first time in so long.. Hmm dunno where we were, was sleeping on the way there. i think it was marina south. seafood. Lol, didn't eat anything except a bowl of sharksfun and 2 buns. Haha okay fine, i was forced to eat a mouthful of fish. skipped the prawns and crabs, and a lil bit of veggies. Ohh, met claire and her family there. Heh, her brothers all look like swimmers too. Super coolness.

Evil people behind me were smoking. stinkyy. Whee talked quite alot with my sis, haha she's super close to her sec 2 seniors.. Dunno.. She talks alot actually. Her phone bill is like. huggee.. And everytime i go into her room shes talking on the phone. (: ohh and she has a discman, maybe i'll get her an mp3 or something. oh that reminds me. i decided to stop giving most people presents.. hahaha i'm super broke this year. oh well i shall wait patiently till my dad gives in and get me a zen micro. or an ipod.

oh ya, our theme for alma mater is like black and white. i think. what a surprise. lol..most people are gonna go in black gowns or something anyway. hmm i wonder how cool it'd be if i wore t shirt and shorts.. hehh, maybe i shall. i think it looks exceptionally weird when people who look male-ish, or simply not feminine wear skirts, or dresses for that matter. seriously.

hahaha i tried explaning the funky bio stuff i read just now to my sister. she appeared to understand. (: cool. oh, and the waiter thinks i dont understand chinese. haha amusing.. he attempted to ask if i wanted drinks, but well. i said no thanks. apparently my mandarin is so bad (: then he tried english. ahhh. my mandarin is not that bad okayy.. hmpf

oh oh i decided, i shall stick to the decisions i've made since i made them in the first place. haha and i made them because i knew i wanted them at that point. so i'm not gonna let anything. NOTHING! affect my decisions.. (:

and. i need a haircut. it shall be symbolic. lol. i am feeling super crappy. but i shan't type all of them out. i dont need to remember them in the future. hehh.. oh well must be my sister's evil influence (: whee my plan to finish reading bio once by today is failing miserably. hahaha but its okay. i'm happy now.
loved at 10:15 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

hohoho, i'm left with evolution, natural selection [variation thingy] and.. reproduction. lol i wonder how much i read is gonna be tested. oh well. at least its interesting.

hmmmmmmmmm hopefully physics and chem is lighter than this.
loved at 05:26 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

=S bio is scaring me. haha.. i did'nt know there could be XX males.. >.< or XXXY and XXXXY males. sigh.. weird thing is XXXX women are severely mentally retarded. hmmmmmm i dunno why though. haha i'm like reading on topics that i'm not tested on. the ones we hafta read are so borrinngg

oh. i've thought it through. i'm happy now. hahaha but i cant remember what i decided on. oh well (: i'm still happy
loved at 05:17 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

oh crap it. i cant do the stuff i wanted to for mother's day anymore. neither can i do the stuff i wanted for my mom's birthday. everything's just... wrong. whyyy?! grrr sigh. i'm forgetting alot of stuff. haha i forgot people's birthdays. how. amusing. its been a long time.
loved at 03:05 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

it just occurred to me that. my birthday's next week. lol. no this is not a hint to anyone. i'm just feeling weird, cos i don't feel excited anymore. i used to love birthdays, anyone's birthday. i'd feel happy. not anymore.

happy birthday weiquan (:
loved at 02:00 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

oh wow, i guess i like to blog only when i'm bored. and i'm bored now. i dunno. it feels empty. like. i don't know why i'm studying for. i'm not so sure about what i wanna be in the future anymore. i suppose its more of an obligation that i wanna fulfil if i wanna get a well-paying job. i want so many things from my parents, and i dont give any back. its time i start giving back. i wanna run away, but running doesn't seem to be the way to solve problems. i'm trying hard. trying hard to stay where i am. i admire people who can take things in their stride, and just do whatever they are faced with. i cant.

i should be doing math now. but its just. so tiring. i'm seriously tired, i wanna quit yfc, i wanna quit sl, i wanna pull out of ora, i wanna quit alot of stuff. but i cant. i'd disappoint alot of people. i'd disappoint myself. why must it be like this?

persevere.

i wanna watch a movie. i wanna just spend a whole day doing nothing. not thinking about anything. not anytime near i guess. everytime i give myself some time to relax and just do nothing, i feel guilty. and i end up. getting more stressed, and wasting more time. ergh i dunno. haha. i'm super tired. and i'm super full. i keep eating. yea i know its bad. i dunno. i dont wanna die. yet. haha..

its really warm here. maybe i'm just a whiny lil brat who cant take small stuff (: oh well. i wonder who actually reads my blog entries. i hope nobody actually reads all of them. cos i'm gonna be blogging alot this week. or until june i suppose. its the only way i can like actually let out stuff. haha.. i'm pathetic.
loved at 01:57 p.m.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

i'm still at meiosis. at least i progressed a few more pages. thanks trixie for passing me the ss notes just now. sigh i cant stand our teachers this year. or maybe its just me. i keep finding myself drifting away during lessons, then i'd suddenly wake up and realise i missed stuff. lotsa stuff i'd guess.

my table looks messy. but my mind's so messed up i cant imagine how i'm gonna clear all these up. not now.

i wrote a series of essays. i guess they're sorta like blog entries. but they're really private. and now, i'm surprised i wrote them at all. one day, when i'm really over it, i'd show them to someone. i guess..

i miss having people to talk to. i miss having people whom i know will be there for me, no matter what i do. i miss going home before the sun sets every day. i miss just sitting down there, watching the sun set. i miss waking up early in the morning to catch soccer games, with my family. i miss watching all tv shows. i miss alot of stuff. but right now i suppose i cant do any of them. until i get myself back up. haha. sigh, some people say people blog because they want people to read. i suppose i do, but sometimes i just don't. but i'm too lazy to change. maybe i'll change one day. when i'm ready.

i want a break from this. haha sigh i think i brought all these upon myself. "whee" i should say. i should be happy. i just got a few performance tasks to complete, ora stuff to do, and service learning project to settle.

at least i'm not alone. (: thankyou
loved at 01:18 p.m.

Friday, April 29, 2005

i'm sorta relieved. maybe i saw it as a confirmation? haha

oh, and ldp is over. i dunno. it could have been a more fun experience i suppose, but somehow i just dont feel sad that its over. maybe its just me. i tried to be more excited about it just now. it didn't really work. especially at the end where i totally died. i guess i'm a failure at this kinda thing. theres no point faking who i really am. maybe i should just be the way i was in sec one. i was happier then. whatever. if you're reading this too bad i'm just feeling idiotic.

i'm wasting my time, i haven't studied anything for the past 2 hours. and i slept on the bus on the way back. i tried to anyway. i'm a fool.

i've decided on certain stuff. but i just can't get over them

stupid ora is screwed as well. i mean, what is the problem with me. why does everything i do screw up so badly. sorry trix and char, i'm just totally annoyed with myself. for being so useless. i just want to. find a way to throw these all away. crying so doesn't work dammit.

at times i wonder if i'm just a bloody 2-faced hypocrite. but i suppose that doesn't matter. for those who don't know me. which is about everyone. dont worry, its okay its just me. serves you right for reading this.

i'm seriously tired. can someone stop me please why the hell am i still like this

i hate this. screw off
loved at 08:42 p.m.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

hmmm we had sex ed again today. weird la. haha.. but laoshi's so cute. i dunno. i just dont see how.. we're gonna learn anything from this.

i'm happy today.

i just spent 20 minutes. just watching the sky darken. it feels good. its dark now. again.

so many things are happening i cant.. catch up. or maybe.

i like this layout.

i should study. oh.

Happy Birthday Jasmine! (:
loved at 07:23 p.m.